He's very nice... BUT

As soon as I hear the "but" its like our inner self doubt... just WAITING to leap out. Or an excuse for us not to go after something because ... we just don't feel it. So I guess the "but" can be a lifesaver

It really does hit a nerve when you are with someone and bam you get that speech.. "you are really nice... you are really good... damn you gave me the biggest orgasm BUT..."

- I'm Married
- I'm in love with someone else
- I'm just not into you (great book title)
- I'm getting over someone I don't want you to be the rebound (even after the orgasm? - what the hell do you call that?!)
- It's not you... its me... really its me... (no its ME ... don't sugarcoat me - I don't want to end up being a diabetic with HEART BURN)


Or the BUT it can play in your favor ...

- I really like her ... but you are a better match for me
- Things were great between us... but being with you I know I can be content
- I used to like being single and care free... but I want to take you out
- I never believed in love... but I see it in your eyes... and its not so bad
- But you know what? I dig you (ok... that comes from the mouth of petz ... I know hardly anyone says "dig" anymore - I think I'm openly admitting of using that line)

Use the "But" wisely!

One in minute you are enjoy an olive...

... The next minute you find yourself choking. Let me tell you the feeling of not being able to breathe SUCKS. Luckily someone on the restaurant, knew what she was doing and pressed her fist on my chest... that sucker came out. I'm not trying to sound emo... far from it, but it made me wonder could that of been it...

My laptop was still on with my travel plans to India

And everything I took personally.... all seem so petty and I'm thinking why sweat it?

What sucks the most - I think some people think I'm totally joking with them and aren't taking my feelings seriously. But I have to remember, I've pulled some pranks before, the last one hurt a lot of people and I did wrote about this in proper detail on FB. But I'm being for reals - I'll make myself perfectly clear I would NEVER joke anything about death... that's too cruel and too many people I care about have had their own experiences of losing someone close (friend and relatives)

I'm putting the pit in a small baggy and keeping it as a reminder how we should at least attempt to live life to the fullest, never let a fight go on too long with those we love and be grateful.

There are times

"... The Heart my bruise... but never breaks...."

And in time... your own time... your own pace... the bruise heals. Don't have someone tell you to get over it. Ok maybe we all need a push from those who are close to us... but if we still need to grieve... we should grieve... if we haven't gotten over someone.... we shouldn't go search for the next best thing...timing is everything.... I was "pushed" to get over someone and fast - which lead to a year of being lonely because in every new person I was searching for an old love.

So take that "get over it" with a grain of salt. And you be your own judge when its time to get over something or someone

Tiffanys

I went to Tiffanys yesterday... I disguised myself in two different outfits. And the way I was treated... wow.. wow... wow...

In a not so dressy outfit... I felt so disrespected... I made it a point to take off any visible jewelery and tucked my hair back in my knit cap

my second outfit... I had my best pants... best shoes... nice new shirt... hair down and styled... I got first class service - even the same girl who treated me like crap.. in my nice outfit... treated me like royalty.


My only defense for me to break being judge is having people get to know me... but it makes me wonder and it makes me feel like I want to be selective of who i give my time to. Cause at the end of the day... some people are just not worth it.